Spider's Web

Your eyes, so vibrant and innocent,
And your smile, so new and warm.
You've captured me in your web,
Entwining me in your trap
And strengthening your grip.
Any girl would love to be this close,
And only one girl would feel this lucky.
Tell me, do you treat your "special one" differently?
Unknowingly, you've trapped me.
Please, release me from
Your poisonous web
Before I drown in your kindness.

I've committed a sin;
I've fallen in love with a taken man.

Please.

{Because I get this feel all the time and I can't.}

That smile, it kills me inside.

Don't direct it to another girl,

Only show that face when you're with me.

Almost like a child who receives a toy,

That look provides me sustenance, the energy to live.

It's become something I can't live without.

It's become something I want to keep with me.

But what if you start to show that smile,

A private expression between the two of us,

To another person?

She's prettier than me, smarter too.

She's everything I'm not – athletic, graceful, funny, you name it.

I wouldn't be surprised if you fell for her;

She has everything... You would look for in a girl.

It's like she's the majestic and beautiful swan

And I'm the ugly duckling in the stories and fantasies given to children.

Except this time, the ugly duckling doesn't have a happy ending.

Please, just don't be closer to her than you are to me.

Don't show her your secret facial expressions

Or the voices you make when it's just the two of us.

Don't include her in our inside jokes,

Or tell them to her first and exclude me.

Please... Don't replace me.

Next to You.

{HOT GIRLS WE GOT PROBLEMS TOO, WE'RE JUST LIKE YOU EXCEPT WE'RE HOT. /Shot, killed, butchered, and thrown away.}

Your glance follows her, trailing her every move.

A smile that's never shown to others, is shown

When you talk to her.

Please don't say that you don't love her.

It's obvious by the way you act.

I should know; I've always looked your way.

It hurts to see this sad, sad truth be unveiled.

But... As long as you're happy, I'm happy... Right?

Although others can live with that, it will always

Be a lie in my mind.

Truth be told, I'd rather be the one beside you,

Walking side by side, harmonizing in footsteps.

But alas, it was never meant to be.

I may curse the two of you to oblivion, cry my

Eyes out to get over this, yet still manage to

Smile when you two are around... But in truth...

I just want to be next to you.

Is that so much to ask?

Happy Endings.

{I'm too negative for my own good.}

He likes her, you like him.
Just the way the story goes.
No happy endings or a sudden
Twist of fate caused by a meeting.
And that's the way it has always been.
A story that involves a broken heart.

If only this story could be tweaked
And edited to fit the desired outcome.
Maybe then a happy ending will form.
In an unjust world, stories like this
Appear all the time; whether we like it or not.
You like him, yet he likes her.
Just what is this unhappy ending?

Resentment.

{Growing up, I was constantly told by my family members to be quiet and to not to talk/give an opinion. Although I don't care much for it now, it still has affected my social skills and how I talk to others. Whenever I look at my sister who is the opposite of me in personality, someone who can talk and can easily make friends, I can't help but think, "Why can't I be like that... Why did this only happen to me?"}

I'm speaking loud and clear.
Yet why is no one listening?
Am I too quiet? Or am I a
Person who speaks in the back?

Why was I raised this way?
Why could no one hear my
Cry for help back then,
Yet expect me to accept their
help now?

I want to be a better speaker.
I want to be able to make friends easily.
I want... to be heard.

Did I do something wrong?
Why shun only me?
Why treat only me differently?
Although they raised me,
I can't help but resent them for
Doing this to me.

Not Meant to Be?

{For any of you who have read 7 Seeds, can you find the quote? <3}

Maybe we weren't meant to be
And maybe our love was just an accident.
But there is one thing you must know:
I love you.
You might just overlook this,
Or you might not. But...
The fact remains.
I'm in love.

If I could pull you back to
The time when our feelings for each other were
Oblivious,
Then I would.
But unfortunately, my powers are limited
And you seemed to have moved on.
What can I do to
Make you come back to me?
Should I change my personality,
Or should I change everything about myself?
Would that make me suitable
For someone like you?
No matter which girl you pick however,
And no matter how many times you hurt me,
Just remember.
I love you.

Goodbye

{Err, late Valentines Day surprise? For this, I decided to write in the viewpoint of the people who had their hearts broken on that day. I hope I got the feeling right though... Feedback is helpful!}

Blurry eyes, faded vision

Hearts are broken

Loves are lost

Time is wasted on one person

That only treats you as a friend.

Memories play with laughter around

Thoughts of our past suddenly show

And although my heart yearns for

Acceptance and love from

That one special person that

Unfortunately cannot be because

His heart is already taken by another.

At first my heart sank at the sound

Of YOUR happiness, but as soon as

The words kicked in I began to realize

That my time with you may have passed

And that our crushes for each other have

Ended.

As long as you are happy, then I am too,

Or so the people before us say.

Yet why is it that I can't help but feel

Unhappy for you during this time?

I may not be the best one around or

The happiest and energetic of the bunch but

I had hoped that in some way

I was able to fill you with happy memories

And moments of our time together.

Looking back, I realized

That although I was happy and filled with your smell,

A constant and refreshing drug of mine,

You were not as happy, not as carefree as when

You were with her.

Awkward and shy when with me,

But happy and outgoing when with the other.

You showed your true side more frequently.

Although I tried not to notice that change,

It has finally gotten to the point where I can

Ignore it no longer.

Because of that, this is

Goodbye.